Thursday, August 31, 2006

GRRR to DeviantArt!

I'm really mad at DeviantArt at the moment. They have "re-vamped" the place, so that now the ones who pay have many more features and the ones who DON'T pay, have many less. SO UNFAIR!!!

For some unfathomable reason, they have decided that unless you pay a subscription, you can only access the last 24 deviations on anyone's gallery. Which is CRAP. REALLY BAD!!!

Someone may ask him/herself why don't I pay a subscription and get on with it. Well, here's the simple truth.
Through the course of my existance, I have tried many things I could use to express myself. Neither of them worked. And in most cases, my parents spent loads of money on stuff that was never used.
This time, I've chosen DRAWING as a way to express myself. And the only condition I put is to NOT SPEND A PENNY.

So THERE. If anyone likes my doodles enough to get me a subscription, then GOOD. If they don't, then no subscription features for Mary. I guess I will have to get used to living without it.

Man I miss writing. "De un tiempo a esta parte" haven't been writing in my diary. And I can tell I need it.






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Sunday, August 27, 2006

Da' QUIZ

Who are you?: I'm Mary Tracy9
What does that mean?: I'm not telling anyone. EVARRR!
What's your real name?: Maria Victoria
How do you want to be called?: Mary
Where are you from?: Argentina
Where do you live?: Soon, in Hatfield, Hertfordshire, United Kingdom
What do you do?: I study Astrophysics

Why should anyone bother with you?: Because I think about important things, because they can help change the world and because I tend to be right about them.
What's your religion?: Currently, none. But I would like to create one, in which people worship, above everything else, NATURE and TRUTH.
What do you look like?: A mood swinging, quite annoying bottle of Coke
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?: INDOORS!
What's your Sexual Orientation?: Currently, straight, but you never know.
Who's your best friend?: Sadly, I have no close friends. But I would love to! I mean, I hope I do someday. OH MY, I'M SO LONELY!!!
Who's your worst enemy?: My low self-esteem, my depression, my bad temper.
What do you live for?: To help change the world with what I know/believe in.

Do you have any of the following...
Pets: yes, a cat named Leticia. It's my mum's. But when I get a place for myself I'll have many more pets!
A mobile phone: yes. You do need one when you are constantly changing residence like me.
A Lava Lamp: No *snif*. But I would love to have a pink one!
A Car: nope. Don't have license either. I'll try to do without a car for as long as I possibly can. CARS MAKE YOUR HIPS GROW!

Describe Your...

Personality: OUCH. Hard to stand, complex, annoying, different, honest, lazy, extremist, ridiculous, desperate for love.
Room: A small 3 dimmensional space, with a constant changing 4th dimension (time).
What’s missing?: Love and Friends. And Happiness.
Bed: Rectangular piece of furniture in which I lay on at night and every time I get depressed.

Do You...

Believe in yourself: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
Do you believe in love at first sight?: NO WAY!!! There is no such thing as "love at first sight". That's just "LUST at first sight"
Consider yourself a good listener: Yep, definitely. Mostly I'm the one doing the listening, but no one listens to ME.
Get Along with your parents: *sighs* yes, with it's ups and downs.
Save your MSN conversations: only if they are meaningful. Or with meaningful people. Like the guy I used to be in love with.
Believe in reincarnation: Ehhhm, no.
Like to make fun of people: NEVER! That is EVOL!
Like to talk on the phone: If I had anyone to talk to, like a "BEST FRIEND", then YES!
Like to eat: CHEESECAKE and chocolate coated cookies.
Like to drive: mostly no. But I enjoy going VERY SLOWLY through desserted areas.
Type with your fingers on home row: YESH! I learned how to type with a typewriter. One of the advantages of studying in an "undeveloped country".
Sleep with a stuffed animal: usually with Minnie and Midge.


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Saturday, August 26, 2006

My life stinks

It stinks BADLY, I tell you.
I have no talent whatsoever. NONE. For NOTHING. Not ART, not SCIENCE. I've spent a great deal of my life looking for something I could be remotely good at, and guess what. There isn't anything!
I have no love. That's right, NO ONE LOVES ME. And I can't love anyone 'cuz my love's no good.
I have no self-esteem. Not the glimmer, of a shadow of self-esteem. That's perhaps the reason why nobody loves me. According to all rules of "dating", "no one will love you if you don't love yourself". So there, that's why I'll be single and lonely 'til I die, 'cuz I can't see how on Earth I could grow self-esteem out of thin air, with no talent and no love.
*tears*
I'm trapped. Trapped in an existance that will always mean misery to me. And the only way out seems to be suicide.
Sod the world, sod men and women, sod everybody who doesn't give my ideas a chance. Sod them ALL who think nothing needs to be changed. Who think I'm the one who's WRONG.

"If a person in a society dies, and no one misses her/him and no one finds out, has that person really died?"

I so wish I was different. Or the WORLD was different.




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